カテゴリー: English Diary

Welcome to my English Diary.
Here, I share my honest thoughts and daily reflections in English. My aim is to show what an ordinary Japanese woman is thinking and feeling in everyday life, and also to connect with readers around the world.

ようこそ「English Diary」へ。
ここでは、私が日々感じていることや考えていることを、あえて英語で書いています。日本人女性としての日常の想いや気づきを英語で発信し、世界の読者の方々とつながっていきたいと思っています。

Sofa

When Meditation Softens My Self-Criticism

Whenever I lack the will to do anything, I turn to meditation.

As soon as I begin, my mind gradually softens and a calm settles in.

I used to berate myself for feeling unmotivated — telling myself, “what a useless woman”

— and it left me feeling low.

Yet when I meditate, those self-critical thoughts sometimes soften

— not completely, but enough to let me feel a small sense of safety.

 

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Still, I know this pattern repeats. Maybe tomorrow I’ll fall into the same cycle again.

But even so, each time I sit down to breathe,

I remind myself that noticing these ups and downs is already part of the journey toward my true self.

 

💬 Do you also have patterns that repeat, even when you wish they wouldn’t?

phones and people

When My Phone Steals My Time (Twice a Day!)

When I lack the motivation to begin working, especially with business-related tasks,
I often pick up my phone and drift into social media or YouTube.

Once it begins, time slips away, leaving me with regret.

In those moments, I realize how impatient I can be and how foolish I feel at my age.

These thoughts weigh me down, and it takes time before I can return to balance.

It sounds absurd, doesn’t it?

Yet this happens almost daily — sometimes even twice in a single day!

 

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I don’t know how I’ll feel tomorrow.

Maybe I’ll have more energy, or maybe I’ll end up wasting time again.

I can’t say I’m strong, but I want to keep looking at myself honestly.

Even if I fall into the same habits, I hope this diary will help me keep walking toward my true self, step by step.

sky, mug, woman

When My Head Says “Work” but My Heart Stays Quiet

This afternoon, I found myself sitting in my living room chair for nearly half an hour,
simply wondering what I should do next.

In my head, I know I should be promoting my business, yet my heart sometimes falls silent, refusing to move.

Writing in English helps me notice this gap between my head and my heart.

Logic tells me to “work harder?,” but “my feelings sometimes stay quiet. “

Maybe this is a part of being human, not just being Japanese.

 

a chair

 

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I decided to begin this English Diary so I can share my honest thoughts in English. My hope is to show what an ordinary Japanese woman is thinking and feeling in daily life, and to connect with readers around the world.

💬 Do you ever feel this gap between your head and your heart?

notebook and a pen

About English Diary

Welcome to my English Diary.

Here, I share my honest thoughts and daily reflections in English. My aim is to show what an ordinary Japanese woman is thinking and feeling in everyday life, and also to connect with readers around the world.



ようこそ「English Diary」へ。

ここでは、私が日々感じていることや考えていることを、あえて英語で書いています。日常の想いや気づきを英語で発信し、世界の読者の方々とつながっていきたいと思っています。